First Journal

I've never really been too big into journal writing or blogging, but sometimes it just feels good to write stuff down, whether it's important or not. So, here goes my first journal:

I feel like I have not released anything to the deviantArt community in a while, and that's because I haven't. I was recently contracted by somebody to work with them on many projects, and that has been a good chunk of my time. However, when I look back on how I've spent my time, I realized that I've had plenty of time to come up with a new icon, but I've just procrastinated it. One reason is because I am simply out of ideas. Anything that I can come up with has already been done. The only idea that I have is to make SockBoy from Little Big Planet. That is an icon that will take a while for me, though, so it will be kind of a side project. If anyone has any ideas for some cool icons, give me a comment and let me know.

Now for some journaling. I recently started Yoga at the campus gym, and I really like it. It's more of a yoga/palates mix, which isn't really what I wanted, but it was the only time that I could make it too. It's more intense than I thought it would be, but that's probably because of the palates. The reason that I started palates is because I'm reading up on Buddhism and would really like to become a Buddhist. I love Buddhism because the principles of the religion aren't wrapped around one person who can hear your mental thoughts and dictates how your life goes. Instead, it says that you are held responsible for what happens to you, and that you can escape life and enter Nirvana only through true enlightenment, which is an idea that absolutely fascinates me.

I also feel like I've been trying to fill an emptiness in my life with stuff to do, like trying out for plays and what not. I have never done anything theatre related in my life, so why do I think I should start now? I used to be content with the free time I had, but now it just gets me depressed because I start thinking about what I used to have. I feel like I need anti-depressants, but I don't want to be a different person because I'm taking pills, does anybody else feel that way? Or am I stupid for not getting the pills? These are just things going through my head. I think this is enough personal information for one journal. Again, leave me a comment about icon ideas, but make them good.